Sunday, August 18, 2024

My memory is bad

I wanted to write a post about my memory... but I forgot what I was going to write.

The reality is, I do seem to have some issues with memory. More long-term stuff, it seems. Short-term is OK, but it depends on the situation. Sometimes I'll talk to someone about something, could be talking to Austin at work. And then the next day, I'll think about relaying something but can't remember if I told him or not.

Sometimes I'll preface the convo with a, "I can't remember if I told you," which gives them an out if I have. Otherwise, they just nod and smile and suffer along.

I will try to use tools to remember, specifically with work-related or to-do related things. I'll write 'em down or put 'em in the phone, etc.

If I'm distracted (on the phone, looking at the computer, etc) and someone's talking, I have to stop so I can focus on what I'm being told. I try not to make it obvious, like I was in the middle of something, so at least it seems like I'm giving the speaker my undivided attention. I'll sometimes feel like others aren't great at that and I'm interrupting or something.

Last week I was at lunch with Marilee and Brooke on MS campus. Nadia came up and we all talked books for a minute (we are book nerds). Nadia said she remembered Carr giving me his old v2 Kindle in the MS Store days. Then she said she remembered me always having a book on hand to read at lunches in the mall.

I don't deny any of those things happening. I even remember Carr giving me his Kindle. But I can't say those memories would ever have popped up in my head for any reason for the rest of my life. The fact that Nadia brought it up cracked me up. I don't have any specific memories about anything that happened with her and I at the Stores, so for her to have that of me was funny.

I also remember a lunch I had with D'neka last year. It was the first time I'd seen her in years, so it was great to see her, but she relayed a memory that I had NO recollection of. And, of course, I don't remember what it was about now, or if it even happened. So maybe there's no story here.

Which brings me around to this blog. I mainly seem to be keeping track of gigs and stuff, for the sole reason for having the memories around when I can't remember them anymore. I don't know if anyone finds them interesting or even reads them; I only ever post them on Talkbass and, as seen last year after my Darrell's gig, some people will find it when searching their bands' names.

But I'll keep writing, if anything, to keep my memories in a spot for future entertainment and archiving.